Friday, January 13, 2012

Becoming Literate: How I became who I am


Today, in my Advanced Writing class, my professor had us do and in class essay. She asked us to think and to remember. We were to look back at when we first learned to read and write about who and what influenced us as we learned. It brought back a lot of old memories and I really enjoyed the assignment. This is a bit different than most of my other posts but I hope you still enjoy my little trip down memory lane.

Becoming Literate
My earliest memory of writing comes from my kindergarten class. My teacher, Mrs. Wilson taught me how to read and write while she was my teacher for the first two years of my education. I can still picture the classroom that I loved so much then. Short tables, perfect for small children, two green chalkboards along the wall, bulletin boards decorated with students work. What I loved the most about that class was the teacher. Mrs. Wilson was an older woman who had a great love for children and a passion for God. She was a major influence on my young life.
Twice a year, Mrs. Wilson would hold her “reading contests.” In these contests there would be prizes based on the number of books we read and rules concerning the number of pages required per book. I always looked forward to these contests because I had a love for reading, even as young as I was. To make the contests even more exciting and to keep track of the number of books each student had read, Mrs. Wilson always devised some new theme for the contest. The one I remember the most was a racetrack theme. On one of the bulletin boards she had made a huge pictograph in the shape of a racetrack. Each student had their own paper racecar with their name on it, and every day the cars would move forward according to the number of books we had read. It was a great way to keep our attention and to make us believe that reading really could be fun.
To be sure that we didn’t cheat during the contest Mrs. Wilson had certain rules. We couldn’t just read the books by ourselves; otherwise she would have no way of knowing if we were telling her the truth. In order to gain credit for the books that we read, we had to read them out loud to a parent. I can remember many long nights of me reading book after book to my mom while she worked in the kitchen or did the laundry. All the while I sat there, in my straight backed, wooden chair, reading. I never wanted to stop. Eventually, my mom would have had enough and I would have to go to bed. I would go to sleep with the words I had read swimming along in my mind. They were never big books and they were definitely not hard to read. Most were just Doctor Seuss or other children’s books; but I still had an immense sense of accomplishment after completing each one. I would come in to class the next day with my head held high as I handed the list of books I had read to Mrs. Wilson. I would watch eagerly as my racecar or spaceship would move closer to its destination. Then, the prizes would come; and wouldn’t you know it, she gave out books as her prizes! I loved that teacher and credit her in part for my love of reading now.
Another fond memory I have of reading was when I was slightly older, maybe eight or nine. One of my sisters (the one that is my youngest older sister) had borrowed a book from a friend and wasn’t reading it. I was bored and I thought that it looked interesting so I took it from her and began to read Black Beauty. My oldest sister came in and was shocked when she saw me reading it. The book was meant for children far older than I and it surprised her that I would do that. For my next birthday she gave me Treasure Island and I loved it.
I also remember the many summer reading contests that our library would have where the prizes would be more books or some candy. I was so eager to join those contests and I read so many books over the summer because of it. I would go to the library almost everyday and get a new book (or three), read them and go back for more. I read the Hardy Boys for a long time and loved it. During fifth and sixth grade I read the entire Left Behind: The Kids series which included fifty books! Then I found the realm of fantasy and I fell in love.
The first time I was introduced to Harry Potter was through the Sorcerer’s Stone movie. Then my dad would play the audiobooks for us while we were on vacation. We would listen to the many adventures of Harry Potter as we traveled across the country to visit relatives. I would read them on my own as well and then I would read them again. My father played many different books while we traveled and I have reread many of them since. I credit him in part for my love of reading as well.
Through the years I have gone from small books meant for children to extremely large books for adults. I have finished many different series, all of them leaving a sadness when it is finally over. The books I have read have become a part of my being and I would never give them up. Also, if it weren’t for Mrs. Wilson, My oldest sister, Summer Reading programs, and my father, I most likely would have fallen into the same trap of hating reading that many of my generation reside in. I love to read and I hope to eventually write something that others will deem worth reading.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Undefeated


Undefeated
The warrior felt his resolve falter. How could he dream of destroying such a beast as this? Again and again he struck down the heads of the mighty dragon, only to be met with two more each time. He was exhausted and didn’t know how much longer he could keep up the fight but still he fought on. The beast was advancing on him swiftly, all six pairs of fangs barred, occasionally blocking an escape route with a blast of flame. Further and further back the warrior was pushed, all the while, trying to defend himself. He was in the field of fallen heroes that the dragon had left behind now. His shield had become almost useless under the constant barrage of flame and his sword had become dull and chipped after constant scrapes on the hard scales of the evil creature. Suddenly, one of the beast’s heads lunged for him. Sure it was the end he raised his sword as if to defend himself and, quite by luck, plunged his sword into the open maw, right into the dragon’s head. With a force that shook the area around him, the head crashed to the ground, lifeless. Curious. Instead of cutting the heads off, it looked as though he need only stab through the creature’s brain. His resolve began to come back. He could do this. He only needed more time and weapons, both of which he had. He darted away from the dragon, grabbed a sword from one of his fallen comrades and turned to face the monster again.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Unstoppable


Unstoppable
The mighty beast seemed to be taken aback by the warrior’s sudden scream. As the soldier rushed towards him the dragon faltered, but only for a moment. The man swung his mighty blade, missing the monster's throat by mere inches. The dragon, enraged even more now, lunged towards the man. He dodged, rolling just out of reach of its massive fangs. Once again, the dragon opened its mouth and a jet of golden flame roared towards the warrior. Once again, the shield was raised just in time and the soldier was blown backward. This continued for hours, the brave soldier would advance on the mighty beast only to be forced back. Long into the night they struggled, each one becoming more and more exhausted. Finally, the man was able to dodge the jet of flame erupting from the mouth of the dragon and, with a horrible sound of steel cutting through flesh and bone, he lopped off the head of the beast. He screamed in triumph, the victory was his. The dragon, slayer of so many, had finally fallen. He could finally rest. But, as he turned to leave, a disturbing sound met his ears. A roar, starting out low but getting increasingly louder. He turned to look back and cried out in horror, for the beast had sprouted, not one, but two heads to replace the one that it had lost. This fight was not over, no, it had merely just begun…

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Unknown


Unknown
The brave warrior had just come off a time of rest; a brief respite from the grueling task before him. The roaring dragon, conqueror of so many, stood snarling before him. He didn’t know what to do. His mind had gone blank! His period of leisure had stolen all of his resolve and skill and he now stood at the mercy of this mighty beast. The great dragon’s maw opened and out flew a golden flame. The man raised his shield just in time but was blown backward by the force of the blaze. All around him erupted and he was trapped. There was nothing more to do but face this foe. Then, as if the flame had awoken his mind, his training flooded back to him. He was made for this! As the fire continued to encircle him he rose to his feet, drew his sword, hoisted his shield, and with a mighty scream, ran to confront the beast…

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Waiting



Waiting…

I sit here, tired of waiting, so tired.
Why? Why must it take so long?
Why does everything feel so wrong?
I’ve been waiting for some time now,
All the while, I thought things were getting better.
I thought the darkness had passed.
I was wrong.
Why though?
I should stop asking that.
I know why.
The real question should be how do I stop the hurt?
Is it possible?
I feel as though I’m already too burnt.
I miss the times of old.
When smiles hid what the lips kept untold.
When the pain was hidden.
When I was ignorant.
But wait, do I really want to go back?
I guess not.
I’m just sick of the waiting.
I want it to be over, no matter the outcome.
That sounds wrong, I know, but maybe, deep down, you feel that way too.
But, we must persevere.
The prize is worth it, the prize is dear.
Do not give up,
I will try my best.
Will you try to?
Are we up for the test?


This is dedicated to my mentor. The man I look up to more than anyone else. He's made some mistakes in his life, but that just makes him human. I hope that this encourages him. Remember, never give up, never back down. I love you.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Rescuer

The Rescuer

The fear engulfs me,
Washing over me like a mighty wave.
I raise my hand up, reaching for something to grasp;
My fingers close on empty air.
My last hope drains from me as the air escapes my lungs.
I scream, but no sound comes out.
The darkness is coming.
Slowly my world is fading to black.
But then, just as I slip to the edge of unconsciousness,
I feel a hand grasp my own.
I feel a tugging.
My head breaks the surface and I see your face.
Forever in your debt, I collapse at your feet.
Thank you
You saved me from the hopelessness
You are my Rescuer.

Friday, October 7, 2011

I Miss You

I Miss You
I miss you.
I miss everything about you.
Your smile,
Your laugh,
Your beauty.
But do you want to know what I miss most?
The ignorance I was filled with.
I believed we might be together.
Can we?
Could we?
Only God knows.
I don’t even deserve you.
You are too good and pure for me.
I’ve done too much,
Too much that can never be washed away.
I don’t want to hurt you,
I know I would end up doing just that in the end.
I know I wouldn’t be able to live with myself after that.
But the worst part?
I still believe.
I still HOPE.
Maybe, just maybe, it could happen.
Maybe God will be good to me,
Maybe my desire will become my reality.
But what if it doesn’t?
Will I be able to handle it?
Will it be too painful for me?
Please God, show me the truth.